December 1st, 2018

I really don’t know how to start this so here I go…I have hit rock bottom.

I have ruined myself with crappy habits and a lazy lookout on life. I’m starting this blog to have a daily diary of my thoughts and feelings on my weight loss journey and life in general.

I’m so sick of feeling gross and not myself, right now I weigh about 230 lbs and my height is 5’4. I’m a size 16 in pants and a xxl in pretty much everything. It just sucks….15 years ago I was 125 lbs and super cute. I could wear all my clothes with confidence and I felt good about myself. I’ve been reflecting on why I have done this too myself and it all comes down to one thing …life stress.

Every time I’ve had to deal with life stress I overeat! I gained 20 lbs when my parents were getting divorced and about 80 while I was pregnant with my son.

I need to fix this and I need to do it now. I’m sick of looking in the mirror and seeing a chick who has given up and hides behind her messy bun and hoody.

I asked for my sister-in-law’s help with this, she is a nutritionist and personal trainer.

I had my first consultation with her yesterday and She has given my a few things to work on .

1. I will be taking a probiotic everyday.
2. I will start my day with a veggie and fruit smoothie
3. I’m not allowed to eat any processed foods (goodbye fast food and pop.)

So I have gone to the grocery store and prepped myself all up for this week. I am already angry that I’m not drinking pop…I’m going from having like 4 diet sodas a day to zero.

I have got to do this and I can. I’m the only one stopping me .